Vertigo:

a sensation where one feels that they are about to fall

I have no words for this moment

All I have to say is,
happy birthday to one of the most amazing boys in my life.

Change.

It feels like yesterday I was standing on Makenna’s curb,
Tyler had his arms around me for the first time.
I was in total awe that I had such an amazing boy all to myself.
That was almost three years ago.
Cheese and rice, where has my time gone?
I used to be so innocent and concerned about such little things.
Sometimes I wish I was young and naive like I used to be.
But I wouldn't give up my experiences, I've had too many great things, too many great people change me and my life.
Life and I have a love hate relationship.
I screw her over, she screws me over, but we still love each other.
I should stop regretting, and start living in this moment.
But thats what got me in all my trouble in the first place.
So I guess Ill just keep living, keep changing, and avoiding change, finding love and losing love.
Change.
Ugh.

(:

Unmotivated

I’m tired of being used.

I’m tired of not being heard.

I’m tired of people telling me what to do.

I’m tired of being pushed into being what people want me to be.

How about you let me be me,
and I’ll let you be you.

Hudson

Ani Difranco has inspired my to pick my guitar back up from the corner that it’s been gathering a thick layer of dust in.
I didn't realize how much I've missed it.
Also, I'm writing again. It'll take a while for me to write anything worth playing but at least I'm making progress right (:

Ps; Tyler, I'm sorry that I never finished your song :/
I'm going to. I promise. Pinky toe promise (:
Gahhh. I miss you. So much. 

Every time I blink, I have a tiny dream.

I downloaded a new two part Ani cd. Its called Revelling:Reckoning.  The first disk is more like Out Of Range style, more intense stuff while the second disc is more Reprieve, kindof a more calm, relaxing sound. Which I am loving so much right now. There’s a song on the Reckoning side that is called Grey and it is soooo amazing. Go listen to it. Right now. But this video has an obnoxious noise in the background so go listen to it on grooveshark or somethin.

Also! Today, I found out that Ani Difranco has a kid!
But in all the things that I found that mentioned her having a child they just referred to it as “the baby” so I have no idea if its a girl/boy or who the father is or what. But, Im partially proud, partially disappointed. Because, we all know what happened to Justin Furstenfeld when he had his daughter. Now he fails epically at life. But, Ani is still rocking it hard so I think its okay (: Thatll be one freaking cool kid.

“Kaytee, I love how you run. You’re like, a really sexy cartoon character.” -–Zacharius John (: